Lost Soul Obsession – Jealousy

In the time that I knew Emily, she was a very jealous person.  She was jealous of her parents for staying married for over 40 years, when she had been divorced 3 times.  She was jealous of all her friends she had, who were in great relationships, and she was jealous of people who had fantastic relationships with their children, as her children hated her.  Every time she opened her mouth to speak, jealousy came out.

Emily didn’t love herself, as she looked at herself as a complete failure and this is where she went wrong.  If she loved herself, she would have created strength to fight off all the negative feelings.  This Lost Soul needed help!

Emily couldn’t help herself because she had grown to love and accept all things negative.  She became obsessed with creating chaos and this was the most unhealthy thing she could have done.

There became a need to hurt others, especially the one’s that were trying to help her.  The more good that came to her, the faster she chased it away.

Jealousy is a disease!  Don not become a person like Emily; find the strength to love yourself enough to be a better person.



Lost Soul Obsession – Defined

“Lost Soul” – a soul that is dammed

“Obsession” – the state of being obsessed with someone or something.

Emily was the true definition as listed above.  Writing about Emily made me look at her insecurities, which made me feel sorry for her at times.  I suppose that is why I kept giving her the endless amount of opportunities to change herself or become a better person.  This lasted for a while, as you can only feel sorry for someone for so long, especially if they are hurting.  There comes a point where they need to help themselves.

Emily looked at my kindness as an opportunity to manipulate me, or attempt to intimidate me.  What she didn’t realize was I was stronger than her insecurities and she learned a valuable lesson.

Enough was enough and things didn’t change, but I came out of it with more strength, more wisdom, and more love for myself.

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