While I was writing the first 4 chapters of Lost Soul Obsession, the constant thought I had in my mind was, “how on earth did I ever manage to trust Emily?” I often read my friends posts on Facebook for example, and when they get burned just once, this is enough for them to not ever trust again. Emily burned me numerous times and I still gave her chances to earn my trust again. The door was always opened to continue to trust or at least, work on trust.
I have read often of the “zero tolerance” which people have and I get it! Trust me, I do get it! However, if you stop trusting right away, that isn’t a comfortable feeling to have while trying to live your life. So who are you hurting more? The person you can’t trust? Or You?
When you do not have trust in a person, the weight of this is damaging to your mind, body and soul; the stress it causes is hurtful to yourself.
After experiencing the stress caused by having “zero trust” with Emily, I came up with a solution! Instead of saying, “I don’t trust you!”, say “I’m letting you go.”
I knew once “I Let Go” of Emily, my mind was free to not carry the weight of what she had done to us as a family. Yes, what she did was horrible, however it does not bother me anymore; I have “let her go” with the understanding that she is a Lost Soul.